10.21.2011

one tired and rambling mama.

forgive me as i type this, as i am one tired mama.
i meant to have a post for you today, but my day yesterday was overtaken with a sick little boy and an emergency room visit.
milo woke up with a cough yesterday, and around 8 o'clock in the morning, started having trouble breathing.
i took him to the doctor, where he got a few breathing treatments, which didn't change anything for him, so they sent us straight to the E.R.  i then proceeded to spend about 10 hours in the emergency room while they tried to figure out why our son wasn't breathing properly.  his oxygen levels were back up to normal (they were at 75% when i first got there---which is way low)...but he was still wheezing and sucking air in, pretty heavily.
after many more hours and many more breathing treatments, he finally started responding and perking back up.  (it was either the breathing treatments, or the fact that i found the NASCAR channel on the hospital T.V.---one can't be sure which helped his situation)

we finally got home around 10:00 in the evening---after a very long, and tiring day.
at this point, they aren't sure if it was asthma (they can't classify it as asthma with only one episode) or a response to an allergic reaction he had last week OR just a cough/cold turned ugly.
we are so thankful that he's better---and back to his crazy self.
i let him sleep in our bed last night (which is such a treat in this house) and i pretty much just made sure he was breathing all night.  yah, i slept grrrrreat.  (it was like my first child days---when i had to make sure caedmon was breathing at all times of the night.  now my newborns don't get that kind of royal treatment.  i'm too damn tired.)

we were so fortunate that it was nothing too serious---that we got it under control.
as i'm sitting there in our E.R. room, watching little kids go by with so many more health issues than my milo, i just couldn't help but be thankful for what the Lord has given us.
i know that at any given moment, things can change.  i want to be thankful for every moment.  and i don't want it to take a hospital visit to remind me of this.

we got to come home...so many kids at that childrens' hospital don't get to come home.
my heart hurts for those families. 

in that very scary moment where he wasn't breathing right, all i could think of was "what the heck can i do right now to help my son---Lord, show me what i need to do!"  the thought that it was beyond my control, is a scary thought.  but so much in this life is beyond our control.  as i slowly grow in my relationship with the Lord, i hope that i can willingly give Him the control.  that i can give Him our children.  that i can be okay with whatever He throws in our path.
those are not easy things to do.

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so, we had to take milo back to our doctor this morning, for a follow-up.  i knew he was back to normal when the nursed asked him how the hospital was and he responded with (very loudly) "can you BELIEVE those people didn't give me dinner OR lunch?!"
LOL.  the kid was hungry.

so, as i type this, i can feel my eyelids getting so heavy.  my bed is calling my name...except now i have an almost 2 year old calling my name as well.  kohen is laying next to me, pitiful and sick.  should have known, right?
i am choosing to believe though, that the Lord has a plan, and it is good.
{photos by the parsons}


28 comments:

  1. Oh, wow! Praise God he's ok! Being a parent can be scary work. Isn't it just so inspiring to see our kiddos just come right out of it and ready to go on to the next thing??

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  2. So glad he's okay! How scary. Hope you can get some rest soon!

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  3. we will continue to pray for mr. milo. what a scary thing to go through! thanks for the reminder to be "thankful for every moment". we love you andersons very much!

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  4. Boo on scary moments with our kids. So glad he's better. And I feel like I am reminded over and over again that my kids are not truly mine. I have yet to completely give up that fact. I'm a work in progress.

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  5. aw I hope it's nothing serious with Milo! Will be praying for him and Kohen! Hope noone else gets sick and that you manage to have a relaxing weekend! <3

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  6. So glad your little man is okay.
    Love hearing your heart for the Lord. Surrender can be so hard at times and seems to be a continual lesson for me.
    Thanks for sharing :]

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  7. I can so empathize with the whole ER thing and upside-downess of life right now. Will be keeping you all in prayers and that everyone gets well and stays well.

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  8. Oh no! Hope everyone is feeling better SOON!

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  9. scary...so glad he is doing better!

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  10. sweet mama, how blessed your children are to have you as their mama. rest well whether right now or tonight. praying healing for your little guy!

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  11. Glad Milo is feeling better. Hope the others tay healthy and you can get some rest.

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  12. Hi Emily, I've been reading your blog for a while, not sure how I bumped into it, but I love reading! Not much of a comment-er:)! This post really touched me. I completely understand how you felt. I just finished reflecting and writing about our son's recent hospitalization. It's amazing to see the hand of God in our lives. It's so hard to see our children in pain (especially when you don't entirely know what's going on with them), but amazing how we grow through our trials. You have a beautiful family and and best of luck with baby #6. You're awesome!

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  13. Also glad that your little guys is feeling better!

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  14. those photos are amazing....and you are wonderful...

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  15. thanking the Lord your sweet little man is okay! get some good sleep, momma. ;) have a wonderful weekend!
    xo
    mary

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  16. Being a mommy is hard. I'm so glad your little guy is okay now. :) So thankful that our Lord promises to never leave or forsake us. ♥erica

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  17. Oh how much easier life would be if our kids were never sick. :( Glad Milo is okay. We've had croup attacks here and ended up at the ER. No bueno!

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  18. So glad he's okay. Sorry you had such a scare. I'm always so happy that the Lord is with us during time like these, He helps bring us the strength we need

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  19. emily, I'm thankful that Milo is ok and that you were given the grace to get through. praying that you were/are able to rest!

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  20. I'm SOOOO glad your little boy is ok!! That is soo scary!! And I love your pictures. AMAZING!!

    Digger ~xoxo~
    http://digdeeperdesign.blogspot.com

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  21. Love ya & praying for your "little" fam!

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  22. So glad he's okay. How scary!!! Hopefully little Kohen won't get nearly that sick. I love love love the last photo of you and Milo. That's a mama moment!

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  23. I'm so sorry to read of your ordeal, and I hope his is feeling better--and you've gotten some rest! This post was so helpful for me to read--I've just found a health issue with one of my children...and I've been struggling to get a grip. My heart hurts so much for her, and yet when I think of what other parents go through with much more serious matters...I just can't imagine how they hold it together. Thank you for some perspective.

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  24. geez...glad my favorite uncle is feeling better.

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  25. These pictures are so precious. I'm new to your blog family, and I think it's funny that though I've never met these kids, I'm still a bit misty eyed going through them. They are a reminder of the magical moments and how they seem to grow up at turbo speed. Thanks for sharing your moments.
    http://olie-oh.blogspot.com/

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  26. i hope you both get some rest. i hope they did chest xrays to rule out any atelectasis (partial or total collapse) of his lung(s), or infiltrates (mycoplasma or pneumonia). if not, and this happens again, pull the mama-bear card, and demand it. if he's ever had sleep issues before, and/or he snores, keep sleep apnea in mind. my daughter has all of the above mentioned diagnosis, and you'd never know by looking at her. not to freak you out...just some info from one mama to another.

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  27. goodness how scary! im glad hes doing better.

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